Feeling nothing, and feeling too much. Long days and longer nights. They morph into one, what is time if not meaning? We give it to it, it takes it back. Small thoughts. Big minds. Petty gazes. Reverse smiles. You go I come, I come you go, but we never meet. Is it me? Is it you? Are we each other of the same one, juxtaposed against our edges of desire and dissent? Control is everything to everyone in different doses, yet it does not exist. You make me feel and I do not, so what is accountability? Is today yesterday, and the day before, tomorrow? Maybe every day is the same day, just with different variables. Maybe it’s a circle and we seek escape, but we run along and end up the same. But is the circle centred, does it spin, does it rotate, is it elastic, does it deform? And if it does we wonder if things changed or if it’s still a circle. Different direction on the same trajectory. Maybe they’re not related, like two entities only containing each other in different planes. Maybe impermanence really is transient, but how could the opposite of such an infinite conception end in the most finite of ways? The light rolls down on the soft curve to no avail and to no denouement, and you see it, and it screams, but they don’t ricochet, and you do not react, for you negate it with your blandness. Feelings and emotions are like gas, they occupy all the space available to them. Except for you, they do not occupy nor preoccupy you, but you always did like to be the exception – even if it meant the absence of good or love. Nothing permeates you, not longer than impermanently anyway, for you are a devoid vessel. Hollow and broken and dysfunctional. You cannot hold now what you never could. You cannot understand now what you never have, because you didn’t want to. I may have lost my touch, but you lost mine. The only thing that’s left is the imprint carved under the weight of your own inadequacy.