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Oct 13, 2022

Zareen 6 years have passed by, and it seems that I have lost the sense of life. There’s something I have been wanting to tell you for the past few days. Something strange is happening. I can’t find life in the living, I find life in the lifeless. Is it strange?( Mustafa told me) and something else is happening, something even stranger. My desire for death, its driving me crazy(I am not suicidal) Its just that the idea of being free after death that’s bewildering. For all this time, I have been yearning for death so profoundly, only God knows what I want, so He won’t take my life. He knows what I’ve fallen for this time. Something(Someone?) that’s too abstract to be real(or maybe the other way around) He won’t let me die. There’s is no rendezvous He won’t let me die. ~Farhat