Mikasa has always been
strong and supportive when it comes to someone she cares deeply about, particularly
Eren. The bond and trust she shared with him is unrivaled yet, there
was a strange loneliness that captivated her true feelings. It rendered her unable
to show emotions often seen as quiet and distanced. The reason was rather plain
vague for she likes to keep her privacy and is seldom bound to create a
digression when such a topic arises. Has she always known the answer to her
question? Perhaps because of the clan or because of the blood. but Mikasa
brushes off this overthinking. She has too much on her plate and it is useless
to feed more thoughts into it, particularly when they are fighting for their
lives and their differences in beliefs. For her, it is inconsequential at least
to Eren. I have always admired her not just as a distinctively tough female
character in the series but as a grown woman she became— how she championed her
battles, how she faced every obstacle, and how she swallowed her fears to
become strong enough to protect those she holds dear. Regardless, there's a tremendous
nostalgia between her and her savior which is why there's absolutely no easy
way out to detach the two when all she did was to keep him alive and safe.
Despite the harsh words and straightforwardness she received, she proceeded as
understanding as she could for the reason he didn't mean any of them and that
they just do have a sturdy divergence on how they want to protect each other.
Albeit the breath of desperation of wanting to stay beside Eren posed a line of
impossibility, she remained calm for she has always known the
worst would happen sooner than later. but Mikasa had once seized the
translucent fortune flashing in front of her to syllogize the future untold.
She knew one day, she'd let go of the scarf. She knew the time would come when
her frozen emotions would thaw and she would find herself soaked in her tears.
Yet, Mikasa is aware she's not cut out for these breakdowns. How many times she
had taught herself to be fixed and steady? How many times she had dampened her
hands with Titans' blood? She's more than what others think about her. She has
way better adjectives than just an emotional human being with no other
reason to live except to keep Eren alive. She is powerful, she's a
champion, she protects, she's an achiever, she provides, she contributes, and
she knows how to give love.