selfishly, i want to tell you not to go too far. but, in fact, you should go too far. travel away, see the world through eyes that resemble mine more closely than any others, and come back when you need. ask for me and i am there.
you are not my favourite person. you are not even my person. you are merely me, and i am you. because of you, i know the boundaries of love, what i need and do not need from my lovers, from my family, from my friends. it’s not confusing. it’s engrained. the lines are clear. you never had to teach me - your existence is proof and it would always have been so. the twenty-one months i spent on this planet before you arrived, you were no less with me than you are now. i never have to be reminded of you. i miss you, but only in the way that i miss my sense of smell when i have a cold. not gone - just temporarily not there.
everyone must matter because you matter. the world must be wide, because you are far away from me but you are still there. time must have no end, because our bond will never break. love must be infinite because i love you as much as i can and yet i can still love others.
