It’s Okay to Live in the Unknown

I graduated college in May 2023, and since then, I have been trying/tirelessly attempting to live an unconventional life, the life of my dreams. But it’s proving harder than I ever imagined.

I thought I would have time to figure things out, breathe, and embrace finally not being in school for the first time. I didn’t realize just how fast the pressure of the world would fall on my shoulders; I thought things would be different by now; I thought I would be different…

This journey has been stressful, to say the least, but still, I have so much faith in myself and the visions I have constantly received from the universe.

But as I patiently await for my inspired action to manifest into my dreams, I cry.

I cry because being in the moment, being in the storm, is so much different than looking into it.

I cry because I wish people would see that even if it doesn’t look like it to them, I am working so hard right now, and all my hard will pay off.

I cry because the more I push back on a conventional life, the more people try to throw those conventions at me.

I keep finding myself asking the question, “Why do I have to conform to the norms of society to get everything I’ve always wanted? Why can’t I do it my way and still succeed?”

I have seen people live the conventional life; I have seen them live the life they are so bent on trying to push on me. But when I see them, I don’t see a joy-filled life. I see struggle and continuous stress. I don’t want to get by; I want to flourish and know in walking in my path that has been strategically laid out for me by the universe, I will.

I am choosing not to listen to people who are only preaching from fear and projecting their struggles onto me.

I don’t want that life.

And as much as it is hard right now, I know that failing was never a part of my journey,

I know that even though I put in the action to achieve my dreams, I am a co-creator with the universe, meaning I must wait for divine timing and trust and believe my time is coming.

To anyone who felt this post, please know that you are not alone and that bad times don’t always last, even if it feels like it. There is always light at the end of the rainbow 🫶🏽